Here we are again

I am in the two week wait now. If you recall from previous post, this means I am waiting to find out if I am pregnant. Today I am what they consider 4dpo (days past ovulation) and it's the worst. Now I get to have secret debates with myself for about the next week and a half about whether or not I am pregnant. Most likely the answer is no. Even though I had my HSG this month (which for some reason increases fertility for a few months afterwards) and even though we have been both been taking medicine I have a feeling I am already out this month. I don't know why, but I feel like with my temperatures from my charts and everything that it just didn't work this month but of course no one can know for certain. Instead I get heart debates with my logical self every time I get a cramp, feel a twinge, get heartburn, don't sleep well, check my BBT each morning, or yawn at work. It's ridiculous. It would be convenient to get pregnant this month because it would be before the heat of summer, would be around the time T graduates and who am I kidding I am tried of trying. It's been about 17 months, it is time to get pregnant! However, only time will tell. Let the countdown begin, T-minus 10 days until I know if I am pregnant or not.

I'm normal

This is the first time I think in my life that I am been so glad to hear the words 'your normal'. I had my HSG done today and from all the preliminary looks I am normal. My uterus is normal. My tubes are clear. If we could get sperm and egg to meet we could have a baby. I am so relieved. In fact, I sort of wanted to cry when they told me. At first I was worried. I could see one tub clearly but the other one not so much. However, it was quite uncomfortable and the cramping wasn't pleasant so I don't think I was paying attention too well but when he said everything looked good I was relieved. I have to wait for the official report from my doctor but as of now I am normal.

Our lives have been so crazy the last 18 months but even so much over the past few weeks so it feels nice to finally get some good news.I am hoping this means my season of hardship might be coming to a close and we can enter into some happiness until the next season of hardship comes at us.

Now I just have to hope I ovulate this month. I should be anytime this week or next. Fingers crossed that I do, that M's medicine is helping his problem and that we can get it right.

It's been a while

Our lives have been so crazy lately. In the last two weeks we have had to deal with an unexpected bed bug problem. (I know, gross). This problem consisted of us paying to have our house sprayed, moving everything out of our house to get it sprayed, staying in a hotel for three days, buy new furniture and beds all for the sum of over $5,000. Plus we had to either have everything in our home dry cleaned or washed before we could come back which took countless hours. If it wasn't for my mom helping we would have not made it through. Through in a little teen angst and you can see why I haven't been on here in a while. Then after all that started to calm my mother finally got a call to move into some income based housing which is wonderful but now we have to move her in about a week to help us know have to pay for two apartment rents in one month. So here we are about to embark on another busy and stressful week. On top of all that I am schedule for my test next Wednesday to see if my tubes are clear or if I have any other problems with my uterus. I am nervous because I don't know if I can take hearing any more bad news about us not being able to have a baby but I am also stressed because it will cost us $1000 out of pocket, which at this time is very difficult with our whole bed bug problem. I hope I don't pull out my hair or drink too much.

Maybe in a few weeks life will go back to normal? Until then, keep us in your thoughts and prays as we have to find a way to pay for all this stuff this month. I don't know how we will do it.